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    Depression is hard to understand, because it is not a consistent state. Depression is rather like a virus, but like a virus, it has its manageable days and its acute, life-threatening flare-ups. You can be in a depression and still laugh at a friend’s joke or have a good night at dinner or manage low-level functioning. You grocery shop and stop to pet a puppy on the corner, talk to friends in a café, maybe write something you don’t hate. When this happens, you might examine your day for clues like reading tea leaves in a cup: Was it the egg for breakfast that made the difference? The three-mile run? You think, well, maybe this thing has moved on now. And you make no sudden moves for fear of attracting its abusive attention again.

    But other times…

    Other times, it’s as if a hole is opening inside you, wider and wider, pressing against your lungs, pushing your internal organs into unnatural places, and you cannot draw a true breath. You are breaking inside, slowly, and everything that keeps you tethered to your life, all of your normal responses, is being sucked through the hole like an airlock emptying into space. These are the times Holly Golightly called the Mean Reds.

    I call it White Knuckling it.

    Miles and Miles of No Man’s Land, Libba Bray (via babybirched)

    "But the stigma of depression is that it comes with the sense that you shouldn’t have it to begin with. That it is self-indulgence or emotional incompetence rather than actual illness."

    (via sonchorizos)

    whoa.

    (via keeperofthehouse)

    When it’s White Knuckle Time, you will have to remind yourself to stand in the middle of the subway platform, well away from the edge.”

    There is an undertow to depression. It doesn’t take you all at once. It leaves you with some false sense that you are coping. That you are in control. That you have the shore still well in sight, until, at some point, you raise your head to find yourself all alone, battered by rough seas with absolutely no idea which way you should swim.”

     

    Jesus, every damn word of this post. It’s remarkable.

    (via foulmouthedliberty)

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    posted: 15 hours ago    with: 429 notes    (source / via)

    “I look at you and see all the ways a soul can bruise, and I wish I could sink my hands into your flesh and light lanterns along your spine so you know there’s nothing but light when I see you.”

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    posted: 17 hours ago    with: 456 notes    (source / via)
    kayaczek:


so I have this headcanon: the boys often had to snuggle up and sleep on the impala’s backseat ‘cause John liked to drive during the night and he didn’t want to waste time crashing at the motel if it wasn’t necessary. And somehow Sam always ended up sleeping atop Dean but neither of them seemed to mind

    kayaczek:

    so I have this headcanon: the boys often had to snuggle up and sleep on the impala’s backseat ‘cause John liked to drive during the night and he didn’t want to waste time crashing at the motel if it wasn’t necessary. And somehow Sam always ended up sleeping atop Dean but neither of them seemed to mind

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    posted: 17 hours ago    with: 1,548 notes    (source / via)

    kateoplis:

    Nardò Ring, Nardò, Italy

    Amazon Rainforest deforestationPara, Brazil

    Terraced rice paddies, Yunnan, China

    Soybean fields, São Domingos, Brazil 

    Mount Whaleback Iron Ore Mine, Pilbara, Australia

    Alang Ship-breaking yards, Gujarat, India

    Plasticulture / Greenhouses, Almeria, Spain

    Oil Extraction Wells, Texas

    Vineyards, Huelva, Spain

    Daily Overview

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    posted: 18 hours ago    with: 6,635 notes    (source / via)
    deliciousmuchentuchen:

The Lutece twins from “Bioshock: Infinite” 
*_____* I LOVE THEM

    deliciousmuchentuchen:

    The Lutece twins from “Bioshock: Infinite” 

    *_____* I LOVE THEM

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    posted: 18 hours ago    with: 43,061 notes    (source / via)

    psyducked:

    I have been watching Lord of the Rings since 6:30am. I don’t know what year it is. I have forgotten the taste of bread, the sound of trees, the softness of the wind. I’ve even forgotten my own name

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    posted: 22 hours ago    with: 12,554 notes    (source / via)

    ktshy:

    adrien-gromelle:

    I always had a thing for hand animated camera move and turn around…
    I can’t tell exactly why…
    probably cause it gives me the feeling I can manage everything and show exactly what I have in my head.
    that can seems stupid but it makes me feel like, sculpting the animation more than drawing it.

    DANG! Anyone know what these are from?

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    posted: 22 hours ago    with: 55,847 notes    (source / via)
    a-little-melancholy:

chaz-gelf:

sixmilliondeadinternets:

Gandhi has been historically the most aggressive character in Civilization due to an original bug in the first game that caused him to go all-out once he reaches democracy. They just kept the thing going ever since.


To further explain this bug, because I was chatting with mothmonarch about Civilization and other strategy games last night and I never got around to explaining this fully, but I love this story:
Gandhi’s AI in the original game had its aggression set to the absolute minimum (0 on a scale of 0 to 10, I believe, I may have this wrong but the basic idea I’m about to explain is accurate, as far as I can tell). Adopting democracy lowers an AI civ’s aggression by 2 points, so when someone who is fully peaceful loses two points of aggression, they should still be nice and polite, right?
Except this is an old DOS game, and so computer math is in place. What actually happened was that Gandhi’s aggression level ticked backwards two steps, from 0 to 255. On a scale of 0 to 10, Gandhi is now 255 points of pure nuclear rage.
And that’s the story as I recall it, but again I may have gotten some details wrong, so feel free to correct me! After that, as the original poster said, the devs loved the bug so much that they just kept it in as a running joke!

“On a scale of 0 to 10, Gandhi is now 255 points of pure nuclear rage.”I about pissed myself laughing at this.

    a-little-melancholy:

    chaz-gelf:

    sixmilliondeadinternets:

    Gandhi has been historically the most aggressive character in Civilization due to an original bug in the first game that caused him to go all-out once he reaches democracy. They just kept the thing going ever since.

    To further explain this bug, because I was chatting with mothmonarch about Civilization and other strategy games last night and I never got around to explaining this fully, but I love this story:

    Gandhi’s AI in the original game had its aggression set to the absolute minimum (0 on a scale of 0 to 10, I believe, I may have this wrong but the basic idea I’m about to explain is accurate, as far as I can tell). Adopting democracy lowers an AI civ’s aggression by 2 points, so when someone who is fully peaceful loses two points of aggression, they should still be nice and polite, right?

    Except this is an old DOS game, and so computer math is in place. What actually happened was that Gandhi’s aggression level ticked backwards two steps, from 0 to 255On a scale of 0 to 10, Gandhi is now 255 points of pure nuclear rage.

    And that’s the story as I recall it, but again I may have gotten some details wrong, so feel free to correct me! After that, as the original poster said, the devs loved the bug so much that they just kept it in as a running joke!

    On a scale of 0 to 10, Gandhi is now 255 points of pure nuclear rage.”

    I about pissed myself laughing at this.

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    posted: 22 hours ago    with: 6,041 notes    (source / via)

    swatlock:

    Pop Culture references in Shrek 2 (2/?)

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    posted: 22 hours ago    with: 11,135 notes    (source / via)

    swatlock:

    Pop Culture References in Shrek 2 (3/?)

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    posted: 22 hours ago    with: 121,788 notes    (source / via)

    bitelchus:

    swatlock:

    Pop Culture References in Shrek 2 (1/?)

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    OH MY GOD, IM SO GLAD I FOUND THIS ON MY DASH.

    I´VE BEEN LOOKING FOR IT FOR AGES. 

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    posted: 23 hours ago    with: 6 notes    (source / via)

    longtobeingiverny:

    Lady Boyle(Waverly) is beautiful and I think the only time you get to see her face is during the mission update. She’s got a total bitchface and I’m into it. 

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    posted: 23 hours ago    with: 777 notes    (source / via)
    eatsleepdraw:

Old Friends
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    posted: 23 hours ago    with: 41 notes    (source / via)

    shadowofsithis:

    "Welcome to my party. I don’t believe you’ve had the pleasure."―Lady Boyle

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